Thursday, January 19, 2006

Jeremiah 29:13

I love God. I love how much he loves me, how no matter what happens he always loves me.
I have been realizing that my relationship with God has been stale of late. That I have not been spending really any quality time at all with him. I prayed the other night out of frustration and feeling like I was not hearing from God anymore, like it was Jesus who had stopped talking to me. Sometimes I am so silly. So I prayed to him, I prayed to hear him, and to know what he wanted from me. And Jeremiah 29:13 is what he said.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart"

There is it. In very easy to understand, no hidden meaning, just seek him with all my heart, plain english. And so I prayed, "Lord, please do not let me find you fully until I seek you with all my heart, do not reveal yourself to me until I do that". I want to know that I am actually running after God, that he is not an afterthought at the end of the day... 'oh yeah, I better pray'. That he is not the last person I consult when I have a decision to make, that I do not take tylenol before I pray to him when I have a headache, that I ask him what he thinks of this movie that I want to watch, this book I want to read, these clothes that I want to wear.
I want to know his voice so well that I know when I hear him, I don't wonder over whether or not it is just me thinking a nice thing, that it truly is the Living God bringing a message or a prophecy or an interpretation. I want to love the Lord my God with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind, and I really want to love my neighbour as myself. Jeremiah 29:13.... of course.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

love, i see you there, adrift on the air, floating by the open window

well!!! i have some very lovely news. Thom and I are engaged!!! he asked me on Monday, January 2nd and of course i said yes.


Sunday, January 01, 2006

Happy New Year!

Hurrah! first day and first post of the new year.

back in ottawa.
christmas with all the family was lovely. for some reason i took hardly any pictures. so not too many to show.

we had such a good time with my family and thom's family and i even got to sneak in a little visit with the Best's. that was very happy.

yesterday i spent half an hour scraping the ice off the Bright's car as i was picking Robyn up at the airport and no one had driven it since it rained buckets and then froze. there was half an inch of ice covering the entire car. i laughed throughout most of the process except when i thought i shattered the front light. but it turned out just to be the layer of ice shattering. phew.

Last night a whole bunch of us got together at Michelle's for new year's eve. I had joked all along that it would be a "games night" but nobody seemed to go along with that, yet somehow that is what it did turn out to be! i was happy as a clam.

a new year is such a nice thing. so many things happened this past year. what does God have in store for us this year? i think that it is really important to start off this year by praying. going through your Bible and pulling out the promises that God has for you.

This year i am believing in Acts 16:31-34 for my family.

But that really will be the beginning.

God's Spirit is upon me; he's chosen me to preach the Message of good news to the poor, sent me to announce pardon to the prisoners and recovery of the sight to the blind, to set the burdened and battered free, to announce, "THIS IS GOD'S YEAR TO ACT!!!'
-Luke 4:18-19 (the Message - emphasis mine)