Wednesday, February 16, 2005

i am tense and hyper!

I AM HYPERTENSION! the silent killer. this doesn't look as funny as it sounds when i say it in a threatening voice with my hands in the air in claw like gestures.

this comes from my series of studying last night. i wrote my patho midterm this morning, the exam that kicked my butt to a failure last year. so it was stressful to say the least, but i think that it went well. beth continues to remind me that i did not even open my binder once last year before the midterm. it would seem i did deserve the mark i got.

anyhow, yesterday i got all ranty at thomas for telling me i would do well, and when i told beth about my ranting, she said.. "who would say such a thing to you?" and i realized how silly i was, so i called thom back and apologized and told him a story of me biting in excitement about finding out when finals are, but the thing is that i was with beth and mandy, who probably thought it was weird, but know that i am weird. the funny part is that we were with our clinical instructor, mary, and she mostly looked a little frightened and concerned and confused. maybe she thought i had become rabid. (beth, you know what that means, get the guillotine)

anyhow, i am hyper, and i did a little dance of joy, for it is reading week next week, but i am done already, so i get to have 1.5 weeks off. i need to get a job. this is on the agenda for the next few days.

anyhow, i'm out.


Sunday, February 13, 2005

why i miss soya

i miss rainbow letters from her and seeing the colourfulness of her journal pages, i miss mass letters from her trip to florida where garbage cans chase her and there is a spy after her whole family. i miss laughing with her. i miss that i don't get to have a hair growing contest with her and hayley because right now i would win, even tho i attempted to cut my own hair (although, not like the time soya flipped her head upside down and just started cutting, i miss that too). i miss giving someone insulin on a regular basis, especially since i am now actually qualified to give needles and the only thing that gets me by is trying to convince thomas that i have diabetes, but he never believes me. I could have diabetes!... maybe i secretly give myself insulin... how could he know that? sheesh. i miss calling her cindy and telling her that the thing that fell off her car is indeed her muffler, and returning the saggy boob farmer, and MY REDEEMER LIVES!!! that God wanted us to have so bad that even after scott threw it out the window, God left a new one on the counter at church for us that sunday. i miss carrying everything in cheer or tide boxes, carrying a giant A down the street. visiting her at sweet valley high. i miss the grumpy days when she gets kind of snarky, and all i can do is laugh because soya angry is more cute or funny, unless she is passionately upset about something... then all i want to do is be angry and cry with her. i miss when she was in the kitchen, and the summer that tasse, robyn and hayley broke her alarm clock (ok dismantled her alarm clock) and made her go on a scavenger hunt to find it in the lake. i miss calling her sheri lynn, and being kathy, and realizing on the last day of our 8 day canoe trip that she has been hardly paddling the whole trip. i miss the flashing hang loose, "teats", i miss her whole family. i miss her crazy room with 40 milk crates as shelves in it, and decorated envelopes and sleepovers, and church, and talks. i miss having someone be so excited about math and science, my friend carla would love soya. carla is the president of the physics club at trent, which she founded to go on a trip to BC!... i miss that soya would love to quilt with me. that we never got to do that (Yet!!) i miss her telling us every week that she totaled off another car and being so sad when the new car is not a standard, and insisting that everytime we drive anywhere she use a empty coke bottle as a stick . nobody does that. nobody but soya. i miss leve, and taking him to the bathroom on sunday nights, and stealing sponges from the janitor's closet, and post church meal (1 cheeseburger meal, super size, make it bacon, a coke, 2 free waters, and 2 treat of the weeks), i miss having someone insist upon riding in the way way back of my volvo, even if there was only three of us in the car, i miss alaska day, summer kid, dressing like her in the summer, handicap shorts, the fact that she was on a bowling team, i miss having a friend called soya.

this is an ode to you soya bean!!

i love you.

coming soon, why i miss hayley.

Monday, February 07, 2005

"you only wish you knew what was going on in these pants! "

that is something i said the other day... it became sort of a scandalous weekend because my housemate, robyn, was in the vagina monologues. imagine toi! and she had to say some very scandalous things... althought not so scandalous as some of the other girls. it is interesting to me (and slightly sad) that a lot of women's supposed freedom seems to be about sexual liberation... they want to have sex, and they are going to get it no matter what. now, wait a minute... what would we think about boys talking this way?
there were definately some funny bits, but the best part of the whole night was robyn's own monologue. she wrote one herself, about abstinence and purity, and it was such a beautiful end to the night. she stood out like the most beautiful girl in the room. i am going to try to get a copy of it to post on here. but basically it was about waiting for that one right person, until you are married. we all had tears in our eyes.
the quote came from a talk about racy underwear.

it has been so nice out as of late, and on friday i finally got to blow the dust off my snowboard and get out to st. sauveur with mattie, benoit, and pat. and a bunch of youth unltd kids. it was such a glorious day, i don't think i've ever had a more glorious day (except the time nancy and i went to sunshine may long weekend and burned our faces so bad that it hurt to sleep on our pillows!).

another week of school is starting, and how can there be 8 weeks of school left? i am pumped for summer. many weddings, and who knows what else.

anyhow, i'm out.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

one of these things is not like the other... one of these things just doesn't belong...

that is the song i sang to beth the other day when joking about if i got a 'ring by spring' (which i am not, so please do not start any rumours).... unless dave you continue with the one about me running away with a russian mobster... that rumour may continue for the rest of my days! anyhoo, i was saying to beth, that song would be funny to have on the answering machine if i got engaged and three of the four of us were engaged except beth. i laughed and said it's you who doesn't belong... then i realized how mean i was when beth ran away in tears and thom scolded me. (it was a nice scolding tho, says he).

thom and i have been reading peter pan by j.m. barrie.... i highly, very highly recommend it... it is far better and way more funny than the disney movie... any day! we also read matilda, and while it seems that we may only read children's books together, we also have some plans for some 'grown up' books... but we need some ideas i think. happily we both seem to love the same books (and movies and cds but that is for another post). mostly lately i have been talking about soya a lot lately, and hayley... and i know that i just missed a million people's birthdays in saskatoon, such as scott, soya, owen, i think jill tho she is not in saskatoon... and i am sure many others... for that i am sorry, and i say happy belated birthday to all of you.

we celebrated thom's birthday last week... the big 21, i was even convinced to go out for supper. something that i usually refuse for the fear that it instills in my stomach ever since the summer of the being very sick weight loss program... most of my pants are still too big. then we went bowling (speed bowling, very speedy bowling..) and then dancing at zaphod's, but i had to lie to thom all month about his birthday present, which was a very beautiful quilt (if i do say so myself), a dinosaur quilt, very bright with some very sweet dinosaur appliques on it. i'll post a picture when i remember to take one on the didge.

on another note, i think that i have been reading justin brand's blog lately... but i am not entirely sure if it is him or not... maybe... anyhow, it is nice to read about the calgary mountains, where my dad just informed me that he skis 100 days out of the year. craziness.

thom and i are off to see house of flying daggers tonight, it looks very good, we saw the preview when we went to see a very long engagement, which i recommend to anyone and everyone.
also, if you live in ottawa, i strongly recommend that you get a membership to the bytowne theatre. it is very lovely, and excellent movies play there.

anyhow, we have to get going to that, so have a swell night!!!


ps... if your best friend feels left out because you are always with your boyfriend... the best thing to do is spend some serious time singing her a love song and molesting her.