i am tense and hyper!

I AM HYPERTENSION! the silent killer. this doesn't look as funny as it sounds when i say it in a threatening voice with my hands in the air in claw like gestures.

this comes from my series of studying last night. i wrote my patho midterm this morning, the exam that kicked my butt to a failure last year. so it was stressful to say the least, but i think that it went well. beth continues to remind me that i did not even open my binder once last year before the midterm. it would seem i did deserve the mark i got.

anyhow, yesterday i got all ranty at thomas for telling me i would do well, and when i told beth about my ranting, she said.. "who would say such a thing to you?" and i realized how silly i was, so i called thom back and apologized and told him a story of me biting in excitement about finding out when finals are, but the thing is that i was with beth and mandy, who probably thought it was weird, but know that i am weird. the funny part is that we were with our clinical instructor, mary, and she mostly looked a little frightened and concerned and confused. maybe she thought i had become rabid. (beth, you know what that means, get the guillotine)

anyhow, i am hyper, and i did a little dance of joy, for it is reading week next week, but i am done already, so i get to have 1.5 weeks off. i need to get a job. this is on the agenda for the next few days.

anyhow, i'm out.

kate

why i miss soya

i miss rainbow letters from her and seeing the colourfulness of her journal pages, i miss mass letters from her trip to florida where garbage cans chase her and there is a spy after her whole family. i miss laughing with her. i miss that i don't get to have a hair growing contest with her and hayley because right now i would win, even tho i attempted to cut my own hair (although, not like the time soya flipped her head upside down and just started cutting, i miss that too). i miss giving someone insulin on a regular basis, especially since i am now actually qualified to give needles and the only thing that gets me by is trying to convince thomas that i have diabetes, but he never believes me. I could have diabetes!... maybe i secretly give myself insulin... how could he know that? sheesh. i miss calling her cindy and telling her that the thing that fell off her car is indeed her muffler, and returning the saggy boob farmer, and MY REDEEMER LIVES!!! that God wanted us to have so bad that even after scott threw it out the window, God left a new one on the counter at church for us that sunday. i miss carrying everything in cheer or tide boxes, carrying a giant A down the street. visiting her at sweet valley high. i miss the grumpy days when she gets kind of snarky, and all i can do is laugh because soya angry is more cute or funny, unless she is passionately upset about something... then all i want to do is be angry and cry with her. i miss when she was in the kitchen, and the summer that tasse, robyn and hayley broke her alarm clock (ok dismantled her alarm clock) and made her go on a scavenger hunt to find it in the lake. i miss calling her sheri lynn, and being kathy, and realizing on the last day of our 8 day canoe trip that she has been hardly paddling the whole trip. i miss the flashing hang loose, "teats", i miss her whole family. i miss her crazy room with 40 milk crates as shelves in it, and decorated envelopes and sleepovers, and church, and talks. i miss having someone be so excited about math and science, my friend carla would love soya. carla is the president of the physics club at trent, which she founded to go on a trip to BC!... i miss that soya would love to quilt with me. that we never got to do that (Yet!!) i miss her telling us every week that she totaled off another car and being so sad when the new car is not a standard, and insisting that everytime we drive anywhere she use a empty coke bottle as a stick . nobody does that. nobody but soya. i miss leve, and taking him to the bathroom on sunday nights, and stealing sponges from the janitor's closet, and post church meal (1 cheeseburger meal, super size, make it bacon, a coke, 2 free waters, and 2 treat of the weeks), i miss having someone insist upon riding in the way way back of my volvo, even if there was only three of us in the car, i miss alaska day, summer kid, dressing like her in the summer, handicap shorts, the fact that she was on a bowling team, i miss having a friend called soya.

this is an ode to you soya bean!!

i love you.

coming soon, why i miss hayley.

"you only wish you knew what was going on in these pants! "

that is something i said the other day... it became sort of a scandalous weekend because my housemate, robyn, was in the vagina monologues. imagine toi! and she had to say some very scandalous things... althought not so scandalous as some of the other girls. it is interesting to me (and slightly sad) that a lot of women's supposed freedom seems to be about sexual liberation... they want to have sex, and they are going to get it no matter what. now, wait a minute... what would we think about boys talking this way?
there were definately some funny bits, but the best part of the whole night was robyn's own monologue. she wrote one herself, about abstinence and purity, and it was such a beautiful end to the night. she stood out like the most beautiful girl in the room. i am going to try to get a copy of it to post on here. but basically it was about waiting for that one right person, until you are married. we all had tears in our eyes.
the quote came from a talk about racy underwear.

it has been so nice out as of late, and on friday i finally got to blow the dust off my snowboard and get out to st. sauveur with mattie, benoit, and pat. and a bunch of youth unltd kids. it was such a glorious day, i don't think i've ever had a more glorious day (except the time nancy and i went to sunshine may long weekend and burned our faces so bad that it hurt to sleep on our pillows!).

another week of school is starting, and how can there be 8 weeks of school left? i am pumped for summer. many weddings, and who knows what else.

anyhow, i'm out.

one of these things is not like the other... one of these things just doesn't belong...

that is the song i sang to beth the other day when joking about if i got a 'ring by spring' (which i am not, so please do not start any rumours).... unless dave you continue with the one about me running away with a russian mobster... that rumour may continue for the rest of my days! anyhoo, i was saying to beth, that song would be funny to have on the answering machine if i got engaged and three of the four of us were engaged except beth. i laughed and said it's you who doesn't belong... then i realized how mean i was when beth ran away in tears and thom scolded me. (it was a nice scolding tho, says he).

thom and i have been reading peter pan by j.m. barrie.... i highly, very highly recommend it... it is far better and way more funny than the disney movie... any day! we also read matilda, and while it seems that we may only read children's books together, we also have some plans for some 'grown up' books... but we need some ideas i think. happily we both seem to love the same books (and movies and cds but that is for another post). mostly lately i have been talking about soya a lot lately, and hayley... and i know that i just missed a million people's birthdays in saskatoon, such as scott, soya, owen, i think jill tho she is not in saskatoon... and i am sure many others... for that i am sorry, and i say happy belated birthday to all of you.

we celebrated thom's birthday last week... the big 21, i was even convinced to go out for supper. something that i usually refuse for the fear that it instills in my stomach ever since the summer of the being very sick weight loss program... most of my pants are still too big. then we went bowling (speed bowling, very speedy bowling..) and then dancing at zaphod's, but i had to lie to thom all month about his birthday present, which was a very beautiful quilt (if i do say so myself), a dinosaur quilt, very bright with some very sweet dinosaur appliques on it. i'll post a picture when i remember to take one on the didge.

on another note, i think that i have been reading justin brand's blog lately... but i am not entirely sure if it is him or not... maybe... anyhow, it is nice to read about the calgary mountains, where my dad just informed me that he skis 100 days out of the year. craziness.

thom and i are off to see house of flying daggers tonight, it looks very good, we saw the preview when we went to see a very long engagement, which i recommend to anyone and everyone.
also, if you live in ottawa, i strongly recommend that you get a membership to the bytowne theatre. it is very lovely, and excellent movies play there.


anyhow, we have to get going to that, so have a swell night!!!

kate

ps... if your best friend feels left out because you are always with your boyfriend... the best thing to do is spend some serious time singing her a love song and molesting her.

winter is nature's way of saying,"Up yours". - Robert Byrne

so it's been a little while since the last update. but today is most worthy of an update i believe. today in ottawa we have a windchill warning. some of you may ask, what indeed is a windchill warning? well it is when the wind makes the temperature drop a ridiculous amount. in fact today it is -40 °C. that my friends is cold. so cold that i am afraid to venture outside. Thom said that last night when he walked home is head was freezing. and he was very much indeed wearing a tuque. this is the thing, when i lived in saskatoon it seemed like it was minus 40 a lot in the winter, but not this cold, maybe the thing was there wasn't as much wind in saskatoon? that maybe it was just minus forty but no windchill? but isn't there supposed to be a lot of wind on the prairies? hmm. maybe i have just turned into a bigger suck. all i know is that since i moved to ottawa i have been way colder in the winter.
so while winter may not always be nature's way of saying "up yours" it certainatly does seem like it on a day when you are afraid to go outside. i even called thom and told him to wait to go to tabaret to find out about school. i am that afraid. sadly, i do need to venture outside today, i need to go to the chiropractor, and then to walmart to buy thread and quilt batting, and maybe a dvd player. we'll see. but mostly i guess it means that i will have to overcome my fears of the cold today.

i hope that you are all warmer than i will be.. and judging by environment canada weather, you all are.

peace

living in the lap of luxury

well, here i am back in the calg, in the hamptons, living the life. what have i done so far today? well let me tell you... even tho i am a little ashamed of the ridiculousness of it all. this morning my momma booked me a massage appointment, the first ever, and my mom and danielle made this woman think that i am the biggest massage moron in the world! they told her that i was so afraid of a massage and danielle told her i have a low pain threshold! hmm. i don't understand that bit, really. anyhow, the first massage ever went fine. in fact, it was enjoyable. it just kind of seems like a frivolous thing to pay for. anyhow, karan has booked me another appointment next week. item 2 on today's agenda. a haircut. apparently since i refused to have a spa day with my mom, she thought she could sneak it in in increments, like i wouldn't notice. but i was sad about getting a haircut. terrified in fact, as any of you who have seen me loving my long hair would know. but thankfully i had a lovely girl who listened to what i said and really only trimmed it. so it is impossible to tell by the naked eye that it is cut. but i am happy, and hopefully it will just grow all the longer now that it is healthy again.
so later this afternoon we are going to get our family pictures done. so far today has been pretty posh. but perhaps it is the niceness after yesterday's super late plane fiasco.
i was supposed to leave ottawa at 7:20 last night, but there was a lot of snow in the t-dot, so, the plane i was supposed to be on was still in toronto at 7:20. then we finally flew to toronto, but also got delayed there. they had to de-ice the plane in ottawa and toronto, so i ended up getting in at 1:20 am alberta time. so 3:20 ottawa time, and i had been up since 7 with like 5 hours of sleep from the night before. but there is a shortage of beds in this house so i get to sleep with my momma this week. and that makes me very happy.
just as expected i do miss my ottawa kinsmen (or as thom would say my bosom chums!) already, but it is so good to be here. i feel a love for my sisters this year that is stronger than ever. the hairdresser called us charlie's angels. maybe she wanted a tip, or maybe, just maybe. the van patter sisters are the hottest sisters ever.
i love it!

hopefully i get to see my dad tonight.

posse out!

i love life!

God is good, all the time, and all the time, God is good!!! i must say that i have had the best semester of my life this year. i just love the people that i am joined with here. i love my family i love beth's family. i love the best's. sheesh... i am filled to the seams and fuller with love right now and it is awesome.
beth and i just got back from a short time in campbellford. my soulmate town. it was lovely to be there and to spend a bit of time with doug, marilyn and jill. i missed paul and janice by one day, but hopefully closer to new year's i will see them. beth and i also spent a day in peterborough, beth got her G.. (hurrah!) and then we went and surprised carla and the amandas at king street. and then off to the best's where cindy was busy preparing a christmas dinner for jamo and his friends. i got to make a cranberry tree. we also got to hang out with tomata, nat and luke. then josh called and he and april want cam and i to emcee there wedding reception! imagine toi! i am stoked, and it is all the better that i get to do it with cam! fabulous. so there are at least 4 weddings to go to this spring. i am excited for this.
we also got to spend some time with mattie, we went hiking in the woods behind his house, and beth wore the greatest parka in the world, and a picture of the three of us made mattie laugh as i have never heard him laugh before. we spent some sweet time praying as well. i love praying with people. i love how God is moving, and he loves it when we ask.
last night thom was saying how sweet it is to be cocky in God, and in his word. how when you ask things according to God's will you can be so cocky because you know what will happen. i love it!!!
beth and i have a final in just over an hour, but it is open book and we have marked up our pages, and we are not too worried. then micro tomorrow, and nursing theory on wednesday. some people are done their exams by now, i myself and just starting today. go figure. 3 exams and they just had to be in the last part of the exam period.
but then off to the calg to see my lovely family and spend christmas with them.
danielle has been home since the 11th and they had a big turkey dinner without me! i was practically excommunicated from christmas!! i mean really, we never ever have turkey! and the one time they do i am convenienly stuck in ottawa waiting for my exams. i can't wait to see them.
then back here on the 29th for new years... although, thom conveniently took a shift on the night of the 29th... the great ditch!! but he doesn't work in the 30th so we shall get to hang out then.
then beth shalll come back and we will be reunited. during exams we were seperated for i think, 5 days and we spoke on the phone at least 3 out of the 5 days. i tell ya. to quote her "i can only hope that my marriage will be as successful as this friendship".

i think that's it for now. i am looking forward to what God has for the next few days.

For unto us a child is born! (ps. this is not any child! this is the christ, the messiah! the savior of our world!!! hurrah!)

peace...